Missing Mom

I didn't plan this , it's just one of those times when grief and loss sneak up on you . I am having the ladies from my neighborhood over and I wanted to sort of fancy up for them . My way of saying I value you and you are special. Maybe that's a Southetn thing? Well I couldn't do that without pulling out and going through the many "pretties" that my mom has given me over the years. Her treasures. 

I found myself wanting to share the moment with her. Here's the problem , Mom at almost 93 is still here, but she's not here. I can't send a photo she can't see. Oh I will send one and Lauren or D will " show" it to her and she will enjoy the moment telling them about what she sees. I can't seem to get her on the phone today - some days she just forgets how to answer. Here but not here that describes my mom.

So where are the words of wisdom, what have I gathered in this walk that I hope my young friends can use? Say it when you can and say it often. Clear the air - there are things I have apologized to mom about- some silly some serious. She knows I love her - she also knows there are some things we will never see the same. I know she loves Jesus and sees Heaven as her next home. Just be sure your relationship is as it should be . Not everyone gets 93 years! Even though there are many times Mom drives me crazy because we are such different view points on so many things. I am suddenly aware that I do miss her and she isn't even gone!